At Year’s End

As 2010 comes to a close, Blackcatloner reflects on the year that was and finds time to bash Justin Beiber.

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2010

Well, here it is, folks. Today is officially the first day of 2010. That means 2009 has officially bit the dust as well as the last decade where I basically came of age via relocation, getting involved in a community project, and a shift towards what I hope will be a new career.

I started the first two years of this past decade back in my old neighborhood of Tivoli where I had a job at Grand Union. Back then, that company was going bankrupt and were about to be taken over by the Stop and Shop grocery chain. At first I was uncertain as to whether or not all of the Grand Union employees would be picked up. In order to prepare for the worst, I ended up taking a side job at McDonald’s in Kingston. That didn’t work out as planned. I started there on New Year’s Day in 2001 and I only lasted about four weeks. They were bad as far as scheduling went. My last week there they had me scheduled for nine hours, which was not enough to get by.

Eventually, I didn’t have to worry about being laid off from Grand Union as Stop and Shop automatically retained all of the employees, including me. And so there I remained for about a year and a half until my family ended up relocating to Central New York, partly because of the rising costs of living down there and the amount of people that were moving up from the city after 9/11. After I moved out, it took me about a month before I got another job, which was as an overnight employee at Wal-Mart in Herkimer. And that’s where I’ve been ever since.

Not that my job took up what I’ve done during the previous decade. I moved around about a couple of times. A year after moving to the Mohawk Valley, I rented an apartment in Ilion for about a year before moving into my current house in Herkimer. And prior to moving to the area, my Internet activity was very limited to the public libraries, starting while I was still living in Tivoli and I mainly used it to stay up on the latest movies that were in development. It was a habit I later took up while I was in Ilion and when I first moved into Herkimer.

Then came my involvement in the Chester Gillette Centennial commemoration events. When I first heard about the case, I began researching the case and as a result, I created an email account and my life and career as Blackcatloner officially began. While I continued working on the case and participated in the centennial events, I began to respond to the call of the Internet as far as blogging and social networking went. Even then, I was still operating out of the public library and later at the library at HCCC for a little over a year. However it would be 2008 when my Internet career would really begin to take off.

By that year, I finally got Internet hookup at my house which meant that I can do more than just blog. I can also do videos. Very late in 2007, I became involved with YouTube and was starting to make videos at that time. I started with cat videos before doing live videos. I also added Twitter and Facebook to my online activities and before I knew it, I have found my true calling.

Anyway, as far as my outlook on this year goes, last year was basically spent soul searching in terms of both my career and my life. This year I’m hoping that this will be the year that everything finally comes together because I do deserve it.

Restless

Have you ever had the suspicion that you are feeling restless because you are not getting what you want or you’re not getting what you want fast enough? Well, I get that way pretty much all the time, especially when it comes to trying to get a date and it has led to some endless lonely nights and it has been like that ever since my school days.

Of course, for someone in my position, a guy who cannot drive and works a shift that doesn’t really permit him to have a relationship or even go out on one date, it can be very excruciating. And let’s face it. I am not getting any younger. I am 29 years old, which is not a very good age for a guy to have never been out on a date.

Before the Internet came around, it used to be easy for a guy to get a girl to go out with him. Now it is much harder than ever and I am living proof of that. If the Internet did not exist, there would be a very good chance that I would be spending the rest of my life alone, and that is not very tempting.

There have been times that I came close to getting someone. Of course I mentioned the time that I almost went to the prom in my freshman year. There was one before that. It happened when I was in seventh grade when I almost went to a school dance (just a regular dance, nothing formal) with a girl in my class. Unfortunately, she was sick and ended up not going. I ended up going alone. Then, towards the end of my trip to Puerto Rico during my “historic” junior year, I met a girl who was on vacation in Puerto Rico and was also from the States. I got her address and everything, but I never heard from her again.

There is just so many to name but it is probably too complicated to list them all. Then I found out that things were even more complicated than they were in high school in that respect. At one point, I considered giving up trying. That was my New Year’s resolution for 2002, and it was one I managed to keep for about two or three years. Until then, I had discovered the Internet and email. I had been on a couple of dating sites, including of course Myspace, and I found out that women are more willing to talk to me online than they do offline.

I guess that my restlessness can also be blamed on the era we live in, where everyone is either online or on their cell phones text-messaging. But as the old saying goes: “You have to do what works for you.” And I am doing that.